StillnessMarch 20264 min
Peace is quieter than I expected.
I spent years thinking peace would feel like a finish line. Instead, it sneaks in during the ordinary moments — wind through the trees, five quiet minutes.
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Sober runner · Rebuilding in public
Miles. Mountains.
Desert. Truth.
Recovery, running, and real life from an adventurer and author documenting the long road back. No shortcuts. No bow on the comeback story.
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Road to
08 · 01 · 26
Status
Sober · Running · Writing
Scroll · Field Notes
§ 01 — Identity
Six things this site is about.And one date worth running toward.
01 · Recovery
Sober life.
Rebuilding in public.
Sobriety was the beginning, not the finish line. This is the ongoing work of staying honest, staying useful, and staying on the road.
Day count → ongoing
02 · Running
Endurance as
discipline.
03 · Adventure
Mountains. Desert. Road.
04 · Writing
A memoir, written in real time.
05 · The Date
08·01·26
The destination
06 · Story already resonating
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§ 02 — The Opening Line
“I stayed sober, but I didn't stay good.”
Sobriety was the beginning, not the finish line. This is the ongoing story of recovery, discipline, relapse-proof honesty, running, wilderness, and becoming useful again.
Sobriety gave him a second chance. Running gave him a structure. The road gave him a place to tell the truth.
— From the opening of the work-in-progress
Frame 1 / Post-race
§ 04 — Field Notes
Dispatches from the Road
Stillness
TrailSeptember 20244 min
The trail never cared who I used to be.
Every time I step onto it, my résumé disappears. The mountain only asks one question: will you take the next step?
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ReflectionMay 20243 min
Some mountains are easier to climb than conversations.
I've climbed mountains that left my legs shaking. Somehow, that felt simpler than sitting across from someone I loved and telling the truth.
ReadField Tape · Spartan
“The mountain doesn't care about your story. That's the gift.”
§ 06 — Speaking
For podcasts, events, and recovery communities.
Honest talks for endurance groups, recovery rooms, schools, and live audiences. Not a polished keynote — a working report from the road.
- 01Getting sober is not the same as getting well
- 02Rebuilding identity after addiction
- 03Running as discipline, not decoration
- 04Adventure as a proving ground
- 05Telling the truth in public
- 06The long road back
§ 07 — Newsletter
Follow the road.Get the truth.
Occasional dispatches on recovery, running, adventure, writing, and the road to 08·01·26. No marketing. No funnel. Just the work.